Curtains

They're all watching like hawks
looking for all my faults;
If I do one thing wrong,
then I can tell my peace of mind "so long..."
Because they never let me forget it,
they only make me regret it.
So I pray hard to
stop being prey to
people with toxic minds,
so I can love myself in kind-
I never understood what that really means;
There are so many "fews" and not enough "far betweens..."
All life is dead-
the only way to revive it
is to survive it
or be survived by it.
Pointing issues at my head
and I rely on my tissues instead
of playing nurse
to my wounded heart.
But crying is something like dying,
it solves nothing,
and leaves you raw and broken,
speaking to words unspoken.
Curse of all curses, one would definitely think
that I was on the brink
of complete and total destruction-
although this is no more than a mere disruption.
Restrictions and convictions,
I'm on a twisted mission...
Convoluted in nature
and full of unforeseen danger,
I know not what I do,
or who I look for, it's true...
But one thing's sure and certain,
and that's the simple fact that
I'll never call it
curtains.

You Must've Done Something

To have captured my heart, my soul, to have raised my spirits to unspeakable levels...

You must've done something.

You forced my guard down

and explored places unknown,

You helped me to see things through new eyes...

You must have done something.

For all the things we've been through,

and all the pain we've endured...

for all the amazing times we've shared;

For us to have lived and loved the way we have

and me not understanding these feelings deep, but embracing them all the same-

You really did something.

For me to place you above all else,

your needs before my own,

to make your wants my desires...

Damn, you're really something.

Whatever you do, it's working, and working well,

Because for the life of me,

I can't tell

Where you end--and I begin;

And words can't express the feelings I have within...

For you, for us, and what we've become;

what we'll continue to be and I'm almost struck dumb

by my love for you and the way my heart aches

at the thought of losing you, at the idea of being without you. 

I love you with everything I have, and then some...

What you've done to me, I cannot say,

But I'm glad that I wake up to you every day. 

I love you, heart and soul,

body and spirit.

You've overtaken me completely...

You must've done something.