Cheers

Being away from you
Hurt my heart in more ways than you could know...
But you left me behind, what an ego-shattering blow.
You didn't tell me to care about you,
But I do - or maybe I thought I did...
You never called, but maybe you couldn't,
I gave a damn, but maybe I shouldn't
have bothered.
I talked to you today.
And as always, it was out of the blue...
That alone should've given me a clue
That today is no more than yesterday's tomorrow,
And that time is never ours to manipulate or borrow.
I thought it would hurt to talk to you again,
But I have nothing but well wishes,
I'll always be your friend.
I felt nothing, no pain, no regret,
Just relief that you're okay,
and resignation to the debt
that you hold me to instead.
Really, I owe you nothing, nor do you owe me,
But I feel there was too much left unsaid,
Blind eyes turned so as not to see
That this...
Undefined, and yet clear as day,
was nothing more than a distraction,
A mere getaway -
From life and its pain,
from sorrow and its shame.
You were a friend in a time of need,
For that, I'm indebted to you,
I am indeed.
Our conversation today was one of revelation,
I'm glad we talked, I needed the clarification.
I hope you're happy and fulfilled,
And that your future will be as that of a rare flower,
Ever-growing and lovingly tilled.
This isn't goodbye, just the musings of my heart...
So here's to yesterday's tomorrows, and to good people and fresh starts.
Cheers.