For Better or Worse

I grew up where you grew up,
the same way you grew up.
We hung with the same people,
but somehow you didn't make it out.
You seemed to revel in the life that wasn't really a life at all.
You had such big dreams in childhood…
What happened?
You were so bright and full of life-
But now the flat dull gleam in your eyes
seems to be ingrained in your very spirit.
You were once someone i looked up to.
But as of late, when i look at you,
my heart hurts.
Because i wonder
if maybe
it could have been me sitting there
unseeing and unsmiling;
Unaware of anything but what once was.
I wonder if maybe
it could've been me,
Trying hard to remember my purpose and why I’m here.
We used to have such good times…
But now the only time we have together
are moments that are lost in translation.
I don't know why
I keep doing this,
when the only one who cares anymore
is me.
But when you love someone,
You never give up hoping that they do better, get better, become better.
Because better is all we ever have to hold on to anymore.